Shall we?

Well.

We found a house.  Its across the street from Valley which means that I get to walk to school.  Its a nice house.  4 bedrooms, 1 1/2 baths, basement.. etc.  Its one of them houses that are one story and then split into two.  Yea.  Heh.  Im so excited too.  We get to move in either this weekend or the next.  We're going to look at the house again today and hopefully pay the deposit.

Anywho, so things are going pretty good.
Friday night: Emily's mom picked me up from school.  Seb and Ronnie came over and we all got ready for PRP's homecoming.  Gosh, that was a great night.  I love that boy.  =)  He's great.  And so damn sweet.  I think Thomas was kind of upset that I went to homecoming instead of hanging out with him but o0o well.  The dance ended at about 12am.  We went back to Em's and hung out till like 3am.  Then Seb and Ronnie left and Emily and I watched TV till we fell asleep.  I wore this long silky black dress and it actually looked good.  Great night.  Except for this stupid bitch Samantha.  She was all calling Em a whore.. which Em wasnt the one humping every god damn body that was there.  Err.. So em was mad that I said something to her but hey, the bitch shut up.

Saturday: Em and I pretty much slept most of the day and just layed on the couch pigging out, watching TV.  Pretty bummy day.  Well then we got ready to go to Rocky Horror.  I wore this lil cheese dress thingy.  LMAO.  I would have never thought.  But yea.. err.. it was interesting.  Fun as hell though.  Met April and Dave up there.  Em's still pissed at April but o0o well.  Im over it.  I guess I have no choice.  I mean hell, even Dave is over it.  Which is stupid but w/e.  There was some chick there that had nothing on but jeans and tape over her boobs.  Heh.  She was pretty hott.  Haha.  Seb and I got a little intimate outside the theater but it was damn sexy.. cuz cops were everywhere.  It was definately interesting.

Sunday:nothing happened.  lol.  Stayed at Em's.  Went house hunting.  Went home.  Talked to Seb.  Went to sleep.  [and forgot to call Thomas]

Speaking of Thomas, I dont know what is up with me and him.  We are ALWAYS around each other at school.  People think that we should go out|are going out.  But w/e.  I like Thomas a lot.  But I dont think we are going to go anywhere.  Just friends we shall stay.  But he is supposed to be coming over tomorrow I think.  And whenever we get our house he'll probably be walking to my house a lot after school.  So thats cool.

And then there is Josh who lives right near Valley also.  I sit next to him in 3 of my classes and he is cool as hell.  Nothing like that though.  He has a chick.  And I gots a man.  So err.. yea.

Anywho, I am going to go.  Gots shit to do.  Bleh.

So in love with TWO.

Oh my fucking God.

Okay, so Sebastian and I are doing well.  And surprisingly that almost sucks.  Jeez, I really like the guy and he is so damn sweet.  Yesterday, he brought me over a box of chocolate and a card with a note in it.  I almost cried.  He's a great boyfriend and a good person.

Yet there is always a but.  The first day I walked into Valley High...  there was a tall guy that caught my attention.  Very cute, with the "rock star" look.  Super long hair and 6'2".  I found myself staring at him and I guess he did too.  He just smiled.  I turned around and walked to class.  Then I see him in the cafeteria and I cant stop looking.  I was sitting there wondering what the hell was wrong with me.  But the boy was gorgeous.

But I didnt think I had a chance with him.  He seemed so picky.  And he had the right to be conceited.  So I never talked to him.  He also came off as the type that hated just about everyone and everything.  I ran across his myspace and just kinda stared at him pictures.  Read what he had to say, and decided that like me, he came off as unapproachable.  So how do two unapproachable people meet each other?  In this case, through friends.

The band practice @ Seb's.. yea he was there.  They came to pick me up and he was standing at my front door.  My heart just dropped.  But I got myself together and went outside and gave all my attention to Seb.  He just looked.

We got to Seb's and I saw him play guitar.  The guy is fucking awesome.  Not just awesome.. but I dont think there is a word for it.  He is going to go places.  But that did it for me.  He had my attention.

We crossed words every now and then at lunch.  Nothing really led up to a conversation.  It was like I stopped breathing whenever I saw him.  I was crazy about this guy and I didnt even know him.  I decided to send him a friend request.  He accepted.  Thats where is started.  We talked on there every now and then...  And one day at lunch he was talking about Eric Clapton.  And Keeley goes "Whose Eric Clapton?... Does he go here?"  And I burst out laughing.  He just kind of looked at me and goes.. "Wow you know who Eric Clapton is?  Im impressed."  I guess that was the point that we knew we were cool with each other.

But it wasnt unti yesterday that we became friends.  I learned a lot about him yesterday.  We went on a field trip and he decided he wanted to hang out with me.  And then we went to eat.. and I had no money.  But he decided to pay.  Heh.  And he still refuses to let me pay him back.  But we spent the whole day together.  And then I get home and we talk all day on yahoo and myspace.  Time has never gone by so quickly.  It was established that he liked me and that I liked him, but also that nothing could be done about it.

Today, he found me in the little cubby thing that Keeley and I always hang out at in the morning.  We planned on going to see Jackass 2 tonight.  Im not sure if Seb can go or not.  But it is planned on.  Well, heh...  Thomas is going too.  I hung out with Thomas all at lunch...  I didnt even go to smoke a cig.  Which I regreted later.  Heh.  Then at the Pep Rally, he sat with me and I played with him hair and then fell asleep with my head on his shoulder.  Then he walked me to the buses and hugged me and that was that.

I dont know what to do bc I cant hurt Seb.  Hes such a good guy.  But he cant be mad at me for Thomas.. Seb is quite the flirt.  And I try not to get jealous bc I know he is like that.  And he says he doesnt mind me hanging out with Thomas.  So I derno.  Thomas and I have already set our boundaries but it drives me crazy when I am with him. It really does.  I dont know where this is going to go.  BLEH!!  And everyone thinks that Thomas and I are so0o cute.  Heh.  I know we look odd together.  The tallest guy and shortest girl hanging out.. and people are already starting to talk.  But I dont care.  Nothing has happened and nothing will happen.  I know Thomas well enough to know he wont do that to Seb.  Heh, the guy actually gives a shit about the people he says he does.  He's a good guy.  And he's hott.  Wow. 

Im so confused.  Why the hell do I do this to myself?

L.O.V.E.

DUDE!!!!!!!!!

I love Seb.  Yes, I do.  He had band practice at his house yesterday.  It was me, Emily, Stephanie, Nick, Jeremy, Sebby, Ronnie, Thomas, Evil Dave, and some other people.  (I cant remember their names)

But it was awesome.  Someone called the cops cuz we were so loud.  muahahaha.  Thats great.

Anywho, I lerve Seb.  =D

And I did not go to school today.  I was sick.  Again.  Ergh.
But I shall go tomorrow.  For I want to spend the night at Em's.

I know all I need to know by the way that I got kissed

 OOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!11

I date Sebby now.  And I am so friggin exicted about it.  He's SO FUCKING HOTT.  He plays guitar, and he has long straight hair that is longer than mine.  Jesus.  lol.

I do happen to be sick right now and it is crazy.  I have a really high fever and yea..    Not good.  But I am still in a good mood.  Sebby's working right now.  But I might go and see him on his break.  We are so going to LRS Fest this weekend.

Another good thing about Sebby is that he actually wants me to stop smoking.  And yea.  I think he is the motivation I needed.  :)  w0000000000000000000000000000000t!!

Sebby n Sarah.
09-06-06

How can he give me so much pleasure? And yet bring me so much pain?

I fell.  I tripped up and I fell.  What a moron.

I'll start in order.  Saturday:Nanny's bday.  Emily and a bunch of other relatives came over.  We built a fire and cooked hotdogs and roasted marshmellows.  It was great.  Emily and I stayed up late, watching movies and all that good stuff.  Just goofing off.  Playing guitar hero and DDR.

Sunday:My dad, grandpa, mom, bro's, Emily, and I went to the zoo.  That was the shit.  We got to play with the monkeys and took a lot of cool pics.  I will probably post them on myspace.  :)  Heh.  Anywho, after the zoo we went and ate at Golden Corral.  Then we went home and Emily and I packer our stuff and I went to her house to spend the night.  Sebby was already there when I got there.  Sebby is a guy I met at a concert who has really long hair and plays guitar and is kinda grunge.  And he is really effin hott.  Well I talked to him Sat and told him to go to Em's house bc I would be there.  Well we got there and were goofing off.  Then we went swimming and Sebby and I were laying on the hammock.  "Movie Moment"  It was great.  Then Ronnie came over at like.. 11:30 and chilled for a little while.  He left later that night but Sebby stayed all night.  Because Emily's mom is cool like that and let him.  We all stayed up till 4am and it was the best night of my life.  April came over and we walked to get some Chinese food.  Which was really good by the way.  :)  Well there was a Dollar General beside it and we stole a shopping cart.  I was riding in it and Emily pushed me into a curb and I flipped over and fell out.  That was perdy funny.  Then we were walking in the neighborhood with it and Sebby started tickling me while I was in the cart so I stood up and then I fell out.  Heh.  That kinda hurt.  Then we started getting on some construction equipment and took pics.  Yea, we took a lot of pics.

Monday:Woke up around 11am.  Em's mom took us to Ronnie's bc they were having Band Practice and they wanted Sebby to fill in and they wanted us to just come over.  Me, Em, and April walked to the gas station and some older guy bought us a slushie.  That was cool.  And check this out.  I was wearing trip pants, and I liked em.  Well we walked back and then we ordered pizza and watched Donnie Darko.  It was about 7:30 when everyone left.  Sebby and I.. kinda hit it off Sunday night.  And I really like the guy.  I dont know where it will go though.  I think he has a chick.  But everyone wants us to go out.  And Ronnie says he will break Sebby's neck if he hurts me.  Yea, Tommy says that too.  heh.  These guys are great and this click is the best I have been in.  I've never been  happier or had so much fun. :)

Im off.. got some studyin to do.